I have spent the entire day in bed so far. It's cold outside so any plans I was thinking of taking part in I've mentally excused my way out of. I can tell that my dog is wondering why the f I won't get up. Every time I make a trip to the bathroom she gets excited and runs into the living room probably hoping that I'm at least heading there. Sorry puppy, no dice. Back to bed every time. I never understood why depressed people stay in bed so much but when you're in this state it makes a bit more sense. When there's nothing out there that you feel like dealing with or participating in there really isn't any motivation to leave the comfort of your bed.
Needless to say I will not count today amongst the good days.
I've also been cheating on my diet all weekend which is not a good thing either. Food is not your friend, food is fuel for your body. I need to remember that this is my mantra. Eat when you're hungry and then eat food that will nourish you. Easier said than done at the moment.
Tomorrow I go to work and then I will officially be on stress leave. Then I will feel like I really can start showing my face in public again. I'm not going to take any Ativan today, or at least that's my goal. I'm feeling quite a bit of anxiety right now just thinking about going into work to deal with all of this stuff. I'm going to try and deal with my anxiety level through some tricks that my naturopath suggested. So far it's not working all that well.
Well that's about all I have to say today I guess. I'm going to watch some Colbert and hopefully get up.
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